In the words of Terrorblade the Soul Keeper, it actually means I (SHAZRIZAL BIN ZUL MUKHSHAR) AM LOSING MY MIND! I’m not supposed to be playing DotA! I’m supposed to be studying for my SPM! I’m not even supposed to be here typing out this blog! Gosh, Trials are this week and I’m not even at the starting line of being prepared. I need to make a battle plan. Or less agressive, a game plan. I need to get rid of my DotA program file, give myself a really good reason not to watch TV and a really bad reason to actually watch it. I need to put a target in front of me. What kind of arrows am I firing if I don’t even have a target?

Okay. List things out.

Bad reasons to watch TV.
-it releases alpha-particles that damage brain cells.
-its a near complete waste of time.
-whatever’s on TV, I probably spent enough time on it to have already watched it anyway.

Good reasons not to watch TV
-I would have more study time.
-I wouldn’t get damaged by the alpha-particles.
-I’d score my exams.
-I won’t regret it.
-I wouldn’t be called a couch-potato.
-And many more.

My goals after SPM.
-Teach myself guitar.
-Sell my drumset and get a laptop.
-Go on a trip to Genting.
-Go fishing off the shores of Tanjung Bidara.
-Get my driving license.
-And many, many more.

Gosh, I wanna get this exam over with. But I don’t wanna regret just doing it blindly. And I hope it doesn’t turn out like my PMR. When just 3 days after the last day of the exam, I was told that PMR was nothing. Just a way to get into the stream I want to be in. And a way for people to get into boarding school. Figures, when I start seeing people like Jeyant in my class, who’s a bum. Probably the most worthless example of a human ending up in a pure-science class. I might’ve ended up in the same class if I just had 2As. But I guess I don’t regret being in the class. A lot of people I like are in there.